Here is the finished product....it will have to do.
Greg took it yesterday.
What do you think?
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Headshot
Here is the finished product....it will have to do.
Greg took it yesterday.
What do you think?
blah.
So the books that I'm reading...I totally meant to put those in the last entry but they are:
"Eat, Pray, Love" by: Elizabeth Gilbert
and
"The Rhythm of Life: Living Everyday with Passion and Purpose" by: Matthey Kelly
"Eat, Pray, Love" is a memoir and "Rhythm" is like a self help kind of book. I have read many of these in my lifetime..and they seem to make ground breaking realizations happen with me. I like people who understand people, therefore I like reading the things these people have to say. I'm very interested in how people live their lives and how they find ways to be happy. It's kind of hard when you put all of your energy into something you "do", rather directly into yourself as a whole, to master yourself.
Annnyywaaayyy, I feel pretty blah today....thus the unoriginal title. I am starting to come to the conclusion that I have PMDD (a longer lasting version of PMS) that effects my life tremendeously. Luckily, I don't have to go anywhere today until later...I'm hoping that next month this stuff doesn't effect the opera....I'm just so fatigued.
I have been in a horrible mood lately, and during this time I try really hard not to let what I think I see affect me. I jump to wild conclusions that someone is being mean to me before I really take time to consider that I am in a tender mood and that almost anything would offend me right now. I don't think my boyfriend has figured out how to get around this stuff yet...and coming from a four year relationship where someone knew every trick...it's really annoying. But I have to be patient I guess. The best thing I can think of right now is to just stay away....he is sick anyway. I never realized starting a new relationship would be so painful and challenging but I am starting to accept these truths and trying with all of my might not to compare the two....but it is hard. Sometimes I give up for the day...and sometimes I handle it. I'm past the anger stage where ANYTHING is better than the past....and I am seeing things for what they are and were and it's almost as hard as the breakup itself.
I'm praying hard for strength right now as I also hurl myself full speed ahead into opera season. I am supposed to be off book completely in about 2 weeks and then do 2 weeks of stageing and then tech week. It's insanity...As James (the director) said, "It's going to be instant opera-just add water."
Word of the day: patience
OK, I'm going to go try to get some headshot printed for some stuff I'm applying to...Did I mention I may be going to Italy this summer for a 2 week program with Sharon? Kinda cool.
These first few entries may be long as I have much to catch up on.
Bye for now.
"Eat, Pray, Love" by: Elizabeth Gilbert
and
"The Rhythm of Life: Living Everyday with Passion and Purpose" by: Matthey Kelly
"Eat, Pray, Love" is a memoir and "Rhythm" is like a self help kind of book. I have read many of these in my lifetime..and they seem to make ground breaking realizations happen with me. I like people who understand people, therefore I like reading the things these people have to say. I'm very interested in how people live their lives and how they find ways to be happy. It's kind of hard when you put all of your energy into something you "do", rather directly into yourself as a whole, to master yourself.
Annnyywaaayyy, I feel pretty blah today....thus the unoriginal title. I am starting to come to the conclusion that I have PMDD (a longer lasting version of PMS) that effects my life tremendeously. Luckily, I don't have to go anywhere today until later...I'm hoping that next month this stuff doesn't effect the opera....I'm just so fatigued.
I have been in a horrible mood lately, and during this time I try really hard not to let what I think I see affect me. I jump to wild conclusions that someone is being mean to me before I really take time to consider that I am in a tender mood and that almost anything would offend me right now. I don't think my boyfriend has figured out how to get around this stuff yet...and coming from a four year relationship where someone knew every trick...it's really annoying. But I have to be patient I guess. The best thing I can think of right now is to just stay away....he is sick anyway. I never realized starting a new relationship would be so painful and challenging but I am starting to accept these truths and trying with all of my might not to compare the two....but it is hard. Sometimes I give up for the day...and sometimes I handle it. I'm past the anger stage where ANYTHING is better than the past....and I am seeing things for what they are and were and it's almost as hard as the breakup itself.
I'm praying hard for strength right now as I also hurl myself full speed ahead into opera season. I am supposed to be off book completely in about 2 weeks and then do 2 weeks of stageing and then tech week. It's insanity...As James (the director) said, "It's going to be instant opera-just add water."
Word of the day: patience
OK, I'm going to go try to get some headshot printed for some stuff I'm applying to...Did I mention I may be going to Italy this summer for a 2 week program with Sharon? Kinda cool.
These first few entries may be long as I have much to catch up on.
Bye for now.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Back to the blogger
It has been awhile since I have done the blog thing and I find that it is probably th best way for me to keep in touch with many of my friends as they seem to have scattered across the country, over the river, through the woods, just generally gone away. :(
Not going to lie, things have been rough in the life of Diana...but in a lot of ways it has been the best thing for me. This is a nice fresh start, a new book to open and start writing things in.
In life news, I have a new boyfriend. Everyone has their own opinion about that fact but mine remains the same. I like him a lot, he makes me happy (just so long as I don't lose sight of the purpose of relationships) So, my friend is a little younger than me, this proves to be a challenge only about 10% of the time. I like the person he is right now and I know I will like the person he becomes in the next 4 years as he is in undergrad. BUT I try not to think of that too much because then it starts to feel like I am only in love with the future. I'm certainly trying to find happiness in everyday life instead of living in the future.
I am on a plan right now. I am trying to become a better person. I feel like improvement of me as a singer has been my only focus the last few years, thus me as a whole person has suffered tremendously. It is probably a well known fact that I do not have a lot of girlfriends. The reasons for that continue to echo from my past, but I am trying to overlook my prejudices against being friends with women. I am trying to just be friendly to everyone and be as warm as possible. In rehearsals, I am much quicker to tell you "you are doing a really great job" or "you sound beautiful" than I ever was in the past. I have a great deal more respect now that I am a grad student especially from the freshmen....and I feel like I need to make the best example to them and my collegues about how to display yourself. Undergrad was indeed much like high school, take 2. I'm glad I am past that time in my life. I would NEVER go back.
Confidence is the first key. Confidence is something that everyone struggles with. It has taken me my lifetime so far to figure out how to display confidence and I find that it only comes with the hard work that you put into what you are doing. I can't be confident if I don't know my music....so a whole new era has begun as far as me spending more time with my scores and characters. (Part of this I can attribute to being a grad student and having more time in general)
I have taken an interesting turn in my faith as well. For a long time I had forgotten about the whole idea of God's role in my life. I had forgotten the reasons that I sing, or the reasons we try to be good to one another. God seems to have a nice plan for me in all areas of my life, not just singing. I was always afraid that God was going to push me down a path I did not want to go down because I was afraid that would mean I would have to make a choice between people in my life and being with God...but I don't. Especially now that I have someone in my life who will be right there with God and I. But even if I weren't dating a Christian whose relationship with God is much more developed than mine was at his age, God would not stop me from being with whoever I wanted to be with...just so long as I stop to ask, "God, what is your dream for me?" So I guess I am trying to be the best version of myself I can be. Good idea right?
So, it may sound a little cheesy, but I am going to try to document this here. AND offer some insight as to how this all came about.
I will tell you:
It started with a breakup and a close look at my life and a few books! BOOKS that have randomly arrived in my hands from a few people who much be looking out for me. One, my mother (who had NO IDEA the treasure she gave me) and my boyfriend's mother. Suddenly, women are coming into my life and offering a helping hand.
Sounds weird. I probably sound about brainwashed right now. But sometimes you just have to take a closer look at yourself. Where you've gone, Where you want to go, and especially, where you are now.
I'll write soon.
Not going to lie, things have been rough in the life of Diana...but in a lot of ways it has been the best thing for me. This is a nice fresh start, a new book to open and start writing things in.
In life news, I have a new boyfriend. Everyone has their own opinion about that fact but mine remains the same. I like him a lot, he makes me happy (just so long as I don't lose sight of the purpose of relationships) So, my friend is a little younger than me, this proves to be a challenge only about 10% of the time. I like the person he is right now and I know I will like the person he becomes in the next 4 years as he is in undergrad. BUT I try not to think of that too much because then it starts to feel like I am only in love with the future. I'm certainly trying to find happiness in everyday life instead of living in the future.
I am on a plan right now. I am trying to become a better person. I feel like improvement of me as a singer has been my only focus the last few years, thus me as a whole person has suffered tremendously. It is probably a well known fact that I do not have a lot of girlfriends. The reasons for that continue to echo from my past, but I am trying to overlook my prejudices against being friends with women. I am trying to just be friendly to everyone and be as warm as possible. In rehearsals, I am much quicker to tell you "you are doing a really great job" or "you sound beautiful" than I ever was in the past. I have a great deal more respect now that I am a grad student especially from the freshmen....and I feel like I need to make the best example to them and my collegues about how to display yourself. Undergrad was indeed much like high school, take 2. I'm glad I am past that time in my life. I would NEVER go back.
Confidence is the first key. Confidence is something that everyone struggles with. It has taken me my lifetime so far to figure out how to display confidence and I find that it only comes with the hard work that you put into what you are doing. I can't be confident if I don't know my music....so a whole new era has begun as far as me spending more time with my scores and characters. (Part of this I can attribute to being a grad student and having more time in general)
I have taken an interesting turn in my faith as well. For a long time I had forgotten about the whole idea of God's role in my life. I had forgotten the reasons that I sing, or the reasons we try to be good to one another. God seems to have a nice plan for me in all areas of my life, not just singing. I was always afraid that God was going to push me down a path I did not want to go down because I was afraid that would mean I would have to make a choice between people in my life and being with God...but I don't. Especially now that I have someone in my life who will be right there with God and I. But even if I weren't dating a Christian whose relationship with God is much more developed than mine was at his age, God would not stop me from being with whoever I wanted to be with...just so long as I stop to ask, "God, what is your dream for me?" So I guess I am trying to be the best version of myself I can be. Good idea right?
So, it may sound a little cheesy, but I am going to try to document this here. AND offer some insight as to how this all came about.
I will tell you:
It started with a breakup and a close look at my life and a few books! BOOKS that have randomly arrived in my hands from a few people who much be looking out for me. One, my mother (who had NO IDEA the treasure she gave me) and my boyfriend's mother. Suddenly, women are coming into my life and offering a helping hand.
Sounds weird. I probably sound about brainwashed right now. But sometimes you just have to take a closer look at yourself. Where you've gone, Where you want to go, and especially, where you are now.
I'll write soon.
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