As things wind down...

Phew.....the opera and all the stress related hype are finally winding down for me. It's all enough in hind-sight that I can look back on it with much pride in my work on the role. I have had the opportunity to sit down with some colleagues who saw the opera from the outside and it got me thinking about a lot of things I never thought of before. New operas are so exciting and I realized that I love talking opera with people....especially when it is something so close to me. It's nice to know people who have real, backed up, opinions about things!

I have slowly been trying to get back to my job. I am rusty....but it's all coming back. I'm regretting telling my family that I would come home this weekend...because I just have so much to catch up on down here...that it would almost be a distraction. I miss them.....but it really makes me lazy to go home. I never get any work done when I am up there. Oh well.....I just probably won't go home tonight....

Not only that...but gas is getting reallllly expensive :(

In life news....everything has rather flatlined. I had to get honest with myself about a few things. First of all, I am learning very well how to function as a single person. It is so much different from being in a relationship....and I'm not really sure why that has to happen. Honestly, when I was in a relationship....I found myself less socialble. I guess. I tend to make friends with mostly guys, which I'm not sure why...but I think it has to do with my childhood and the way that most of the women in my life have treated me. Girlfriends in middle school and high school were a tough crowd. I was definately some type of really cute nerd. Which is funny because I find myself wildly attracted to really cute nerds LOL! I love people who are obsessed with what they do...and I love it even more if I don't have any understanding of what they do. The smarter the better....It's also kinda cool to date people that do things that I don't know anything about because at some point...I get to learn about it too.

I think people often latch on to people who do things they think they could never do. I love to be in awe of the person I am with. I also seem to love power....but it's not even power....the power of knowlegde blows my mind!

OK...Im not into full blown nerds who have absolutely no social skills and are like virgins and what not....but I like me a really hott nerd HA! I know a few right now. ;)

At any rate....nothing is going anywhere too quickly and it seems like everyone I know right now is trying to shed some sort of emotional coil...probably just breaking out of the shitty, depressing winter. I myself still find I am somewhat trapped in the past (what with living with my ex) but that just keeps getting easier and easier.


A friend said this to me today: "Diana, you always smile, even when you are depressed. You always have some sort of contentment within yourself and that is something." also "You are learning how to control your emotions, that could be a good thing or a bad thing."

I love when people notice things about me. I have noticed for quite some time...that I can always smile. I think my smile confuses people sometimes...but it's there because something, somewhere is making me happy...and I think it might just be contentment with myself.


love it.

Alison, I'm going home this weekend BOOOOOO!!!!!! but we shall certainly hang out soon. :)
Candy, Oh how I miss you.
(yeah these are the only girls I talk to...cept maybe Kirsten)